Lord this hunger I feel is for you only. What I thought was for a man, was really for you all along. Lord you send us warnings, but so impulsively we are, we act instantly in oppose to just wait and be…still. Lord, who else am I to give all this love to if not all to you first? So unworthy I am to be given all the Love you give me continuously. With my sinful thoughts, my sinful acts and despising tongue; who I am to receive such unconditional love? The surface is where we as humans tend to look and gain our knowledge and judgment. But you are fair Oh Lord, you not merely glance at our hearts but you study them. You know our hearts from the inside out and that is where you judge. We as humans do not know our own hearts, filled with emotions and they are forever moving (and “emotions” and cannot be spelled without “motions”). Forever shifting, molding according to what all happens to us that day, or all that is said to us that hour, or hear that second. But Lord you are CONSTANT in all you do. Your Love is unchanging. Though I yearn for a spouse, I know that no man on earth will ever be able to provide me the Love that my soul desires, that all our souls’ desire, at some point. The fact that I acknowledge that I do want a husband and a family, the fact that I yearn for them does not eliminate the truth that stands: they are not sustaining volume. They will all evaporate, but you LORD will remain in me CONSTANT as you are without me. Yes they will be lovely to have because they will be of you Oh LORD and I won’t settle for anything less. Nothing of this world Oh Lord. Curse Satan for trying to make me believe that a man of this world with his money, flash, dream of success only, desire to attain more and more money and live closer to it than you, is what I, a daughter of you, will have to settle with. Then my heart and its foolish and childlike ways will conform “Well it will bring you some comfort for some time.” “Some comfort….some time”! Who am I to believe such fallacies and conform to such limited and fading dreams! Am I not 2 COR 5:17? Am I not Proverbs 31?! Am I not Galatians 3:26?! Or was John 3:16 a fairytale for pathetic wretches like me to have hope? According to some theorists, what you believe in will become a reality to you, well my beliefs does not tie into actuality. Just because one believes the sky is red does not mean it actually is! LORD Oh GOD you are not tied down by beliefs nor are you limited by them! You are BEYOND! This heart of ours is condemning and it is of evil ways as it wills to deceit us, but you are greater than our hearts! LORD OH GOD there isn’t anyone like you and with ever void that attempts to build within me, my source of attack will ALWAYS be YOU because you are always more than enough! LORD are you not Revelations 22:13! Are you not Oh Lord Daniel 2:37?! JESUS! YOU ARE DEUTERONOMY 10:17! JESUS YOU WILL FOREVER BE Isaiah 47:4, Jeremiah 8:18, Psalm 147:3! Forever you will be John 15:5, Revelation 2:4 and I will be live to my fullest strength thru you Mark 12:30. LORD Oh GOD, “how can I keep from singing your praise, how could I ever say enough, how amazing is YOUR LOVE! How can I keep from shouting your name! I know I am loved by the KING and it makes my heart want to sing! (Chris Tomlin)” LORD Oh GOD! Thank you for living in my soul, dwelling within my heart transforming it from the inside it, fighting against its ways as it seeks to separate me from you. LORD you know my motives, you are greater than my heart and you know the Truth, which is where I stand.
