Faith

The struggles of being lonely
I thought I had to face daily
because I chose to break free
from your unity with me.
I loved you with all my heart,
to the end, from the start;
"With a love that was greater than a love..."
that I was sure it came from HIM above.
I could smell your scent,
and I could tell when it went
away from my heart and away from my soul,
which was when I begun to know.
But I fought for us,
fought for us to be more than "Just
another couple that didn't last."
But sometimes it is impossible to fight what is meant to be our past.
The battle took my energy and happiness,
until misery and agony was all I had left.
The days of weakness and nights of tears,
stemmed from the emotion we all fear---
loneliness.
I would pray for us to stay together,
and make it through this stormy weather,
but the LORD held my right hand and whispered,

"You know,"

so I opened my left hand and let you go.
Although empty my left hand felt,
not many tears fell as I wept.

"When the right man comes, I will let you know," my Savior said,
"but for now I am your sheet, comforter and your bed, so rest your head."

I thought about you always,
every second in every way.
The pain was never as striking
as me letting you go that day.

"It is because of I, you are learning that you are not alone.
I have held your right hand even with him gone."

Then I began to pray for a fixing
of me and whatever it was I felt was missing.

"Child, I have a set time to fill that hole,
but only I know.
So keep praying and trust me
because whatever you pray for with faith, you will receive."

HIS grasp on my hand grew warm,
my soul has been charmed.
Not by the touch of a man of flesh,
but by the compassionate words my beloved LORD professed.
HE speaks to my soul and not my drums,
HE gently holds my heart, but doesn't cling on.

"This is what you will feel when the right man takes your hand---
He will sweep you off your feet and then catch you like a man."

My anxiety grows, "Where is he?"

"Do not worry beloved,
for his timing is perfected.
A timing of when you will least expect it,
but for now just hold on child,
it can be days...it can be awhile.
Are you willing to be strong because now I am your only ONE?"

I firmly grasp HIS hand, "Yes Savior, because your will be done."


**Created on January 31, 2012
    Modified May 19, 2013